mummy anxiousness
Aug. 30th, 2013 11:55 amI kind of hate writing here whenever I feel like shit, but it's really the only place I can do it, unfortunately. I'm keeping up appearances on FB, Twitter has limits and Tumblr is oddly.. open.
I enrolled Liam into 3 year old Kindergarten for the coming school year in January/February. It's not compulsory and it's kind of expensive for what it is, but he's going.
Now, I'm kind of an anxious person as it is, and a little competitive, and 3 year old kinder is the first time Liam's going to be thrust into a room full of his peers without me and I don't know, I'm a nervous wreck already.
I was looking at all the other kids that were enrolling and wondering how he's going to cope, and worried that he's behind or going to have a terrible time. Liam is a really quiet, socially anxious kid who wouldn't surprise me if he was somewhere on the spectrum (not in any way that concerns me, not in any way that makes me even want to get him tested) and all these other kids are just going to steamroll him. At playgroup, during storytime, the leader often asks Liam questions about the story, like 'what colour is the flower, Liam?' and Liam will know the answer, but another kid will always yell out first and louder. I don't want him to never get any attention because he's quiet and obedient.
Liam's not very big and he's physically not as strong as other kids, and he's cautious and nervous and I'm wondering how much of this is him and how much of it is a reflection of me, my personality, my parenting?
And his shyness - how far do I push so that he overcomes his shyness, without making him hate me and everything?
Liam's perfectly academic - bet you anything he'll be able to read in a year, I mean, he can do basic addition and can count to a hundred with only a few hiccups. He's just not very social, and he's not particularly verbal and I worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry.
And I Know there's nothing I should be worrying about. I just want him to be confident. I'm probably projecting, but lack of confidence is THE WORST. Thinking you can't do things is crippling and I think I've failed already and he's not even three :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
eta: I think part of me feels like someone is going to pop out of the woodwork and point at me and say 'OMG YOU FAILED AT PARENTING LOOK AT YOUR CHILD', whereas right now I can just keep Liam at home and no one will know.
I enrolled Liam into 3 year old Kindergarten for the coming school year in January/February. It's not compulsory and it's kind of expensive for what it is, but he's going.
Now, I'm kind of an anxious person as it is, and a little competitive, and 3 year old kinder is the first time Liam's going to be thrust into a room full of his peers without me and I don't know, I'm a nervous wreck already.
I was looking at all the other kids that were enrolling and wondering how he's going to cope, and worried that he's behind or going to have a terrible time. Liam is a really quiet, socially anxious kid who wouldn't surprise me if he was somewhere on the spectrum (not in any way that concerns me, not in any way that makes me even want to get him tested) and all these other kids are just going to steamroll him. At playgroup, during storytime, the leader often asks Liam questions about the story, like 'what colour is the flower, Liam?' and Liam will know the answer, but another kid will always yell out first and louder. I don't want him to never get any attention because he's quiet and obedient.
Liam's not very big and he's physically not as strong as other kids, and he's cautious and nervous and I'm wondering how much of this is him and how much of it is a reflection of me, my personality, my parenting?
And his shyness - how far do I push so that he overcomes his shyness, without making him hate me and everything?
Liam's perfectly academic - bet you anything he'll be able to read in a year, I mean, he can do basic addition and can count to a hundred with only a few hiccups. He's just not very social, and he's not particularly verbal and I worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry.
And I Know there's nothing I should be worrying about. I just want him to be confident. I'm probably projecting, but lack of confidence is THE WORST. Thinking you can't do things is crippling and I think I've failed already and he's not even three :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
eta: I think part of me feels like someone is going to pop out of the woodwork and point at me and say 'OMG YOU FAILED AT PARENTING LOOK AT YOUR CHILD', whereas right now I can just keep Liam at home and no one will know.