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[wickedcherub]

Hey - in an effort to reclaim my life on LJ, I've made a rather large friends cut, nothing personal, just people I wasn't talking too, and hopefully it will make it all more manageable now so I can come back here.

I'm a terrible friend. I don't know why but I find it insanely hard to keep up a consistent friendship with anyone - I'll talk to someone every day for a few weeks, then not talk to them for months. I tried keeping up with RL friends on facebook because it wasn't time-intensive, but I just never get around to replying to people.

At least when I was a regular on LJ I felt like I was still in touch with everyone, so I figure it's time to come back.

None of my LJ layouts work anymore, so I'm back to a default one until I can work out the problem. My paid account runs out very soon, the first time in 5 years, and part of me doesn't want to pay it anymore, but part of me knows that if I see a Plus+ ad, I'm going to punch something. It's blackmail, that's what it is.

I've had big assignments due, and my little 9 yo boy cousin died of brain cancer this week. We've tried to spend as much time as we could with their family this past month even though they live so far away and even though all the cancer had disappeared earlier this year and he was healthy again, it relapsed and within a few weeks of my brother talking to him on msn, he just deteriorated :( I have to miss the funeral because of uni, but I'll be driving up to view the casket tomorrow. It's all stupid and I've been angry and upset and have been trying to distract myself from thinking about it, but it's going to hit me eventually that he's... gone. I don't know anyone that's died. I just don't get it. He was the light of everyone's life. If I believed in God, I'd say he sucks at his job.

I have to go type up my mum's assignment now - watching her peck away at the keyboard is driving me nuts, and speaking of assignments, I have a big favour to ask:

If you are a teacher, or you have/had school aged children and are willing to have a short interview with me via IM for my next big assignment, can you please let me know?

Or if you know anyone who wouldn't mind helping me out?

I have an assignment on the changes of curriculum, assessment and reporting over the years, and through different countries that's worth 40% of my mark :( It'll only be a short interview, and I think an edited version of the interview will be attached as an appendix to my assignment.

I'd be ever so grateful.

Thanks.

Comments

[kat8cha.livejournal.com]

It's tough to keep up with LJ, especially with stuff like that going on in RL.

Sorry to hear about your cousin sweetheart. ~hug~ :(

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

I don't know if it's tough, it's just that once you drop the habit, it's hard to take it up again! It gets overwhelming because you don't know skip?=how much you should go.

Ah, I'm just a big drama queen. The cousin bit's been shit, but I should be able to handle everything else, and keep up with my friends.

Thank you *hugs*

[oohasparklie.livejournal.com]

You better keep your ass here this time. I don't like it when you're gone, even though I'm usually too busy now to keep up with my flist anyway. But I loooove you and miss you, dammit!

I'm very sorry about your cousin, that's just so sad. There's nothing I can say to justify something that senseless. *Hug*

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

I'll try. It's also been that I've been disinterested in fandom, so I just look at my flist and go 'bleugh'.

You should come to facebook at least, I think :D

My cousin was the happiest little boy and made everyone around him happy. There are no boys on that side of the family just tons and tons of girls and he's the very youngest and hero worships my brother. We waited so long for a boy to be born in that family (lots of older sisters!) and now he's been taken away. It's just not fair :( I'm sort of glad there's no one to blame though. I'd rather be angry at life than have focused anger.

*hugs*

[sarahlouise.livejournal.com]

oh my god, I'm so sorry about your cousin, that is truly awful. :(

If you don't have any luck with your interview, my mum and one of my good friends are teachers. Neither of them are IM savvy ;) but if you gave me a list of your questions they probably wouldn't mind filling it in.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

If I don't have luck with my interview, would you mind if I called them up? I think I'd rather a real-time interview so I can get clarifications on any answers straight away.

It looks like I might have enough though, just as a backup.

Thanks Sarah.

[versailles-rose.livejournal.com]

I've had two kids in school and I'd be glad to help you. Just email me the interview questions and I will answer them very candidly.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

Thank you! It might be a bit of email back and forth to get clarification on answers and so forth (which is why I prefered IM) so if you don't mind that I'll email you shortly :D

[o-chan.livejournal.com]

can I do the interview? :D

I've had... uhh.. Boo and Tash :P

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

Well you can, if you care at all about assessment and reporting :S

[cheshirepuss.livejournal.com]

Aw, I love you.

I am just barely past school aged. You wanna interview me? I can pretend to be a sexy 5th grader for you, baby.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

haha 5th grader is way too young. Highschool sophomores are where it's at. And are legal in Australia. Well, as long as I'm not a teacher. And I'm not yet.

I think I might have enough interviewees thank you m'dear!

[waxrose.livejournal.com]

I've missed you a lot! It sounds like you've been having a tough time. I'm sorry about your cousin. *tight hug* ♥

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

aw thank you. No, my time's been pretty ok except for the cousin bit. I'm just being a drama queen. But yeah, the cousin bit really really sucks :(

♥

[ffarff.livejournal.com]

im on Plus+ now and the ads are driving me insane.

im so sorry to hear about your cousin

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

I would never be on Plus+, but I'd have to view people's journals who were!

GAH. I don't want to pay the evil Six Apart people!

Thanks Callum.

[mariannec.livejournal.com]

My deepest sympathy.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

Thank you. ♥

[nickelodeon.livejournal.com]

I hope things get better for you. Definitely.

I'm not a school-aged teacher but I'm going to school TO be one. And taking classes in curriculum and stuff. Does that help?

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

Things aren't bad, I mean, I'd known he was sick for a long time, I just never accepted *how* sick :(

I'm doing ok.

And thanks for the offer Steph but I need someone who's currently got kids at school at the moment. I know that's not you :D

[freesnowcone.livejournal.com]

Oh no, I'm so so sorry to hear about your cousin. *hugs* That's so unfair.

As for teachers, I taught for a year, but at the university level so I'm not too sure how relevant that is for you. But if it is and you still need people, I'd be more than willing to help out.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

Yeah I'm going to be a secondary teacher, so I need secondary kids. But thanks for the offer.

Yeah, life's a bitch and then you die is the new motto around here :S

[robley.livejournal.com]

My sincerest condolences. That's horrible.

Hugs to you and your family.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

Thanks Robby ♥

[cakeface.livejournal.com]

Thinking of you and your family, dearest. <3

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

Thank you. <3

[thawrecka]

Oh, sweetheart. I am so sorry to hear that and you have my deepest sympathies.

Also, welcome back. ♥

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

Thanks Jen - I'll have some time off next week I think, will give you a call then. Are you working full time?

[silvercurse.livejournal.com]

It's terrible to here about your cousin, I'm so sorry. Cancer is terrible and unfortunately merciless. I hope that you and your family are doing well though.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

We're ok, we'll always be ok.

He's gone though. :( TOO EARLY. :( :( :(

Thanks Tash *hugs*

[helpful-corn.livejournal.com]

*big hugs* Sorry about your cousin.

And I'm glad you're back in LJ.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

Thank you :)

[renne.livejournal.com]

I am sorry to hear about your cousin, Tina. ♥

And believe me, I know how tough it is to keep in touch with people. I'm a shocker at it.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

I don't think it's supposed to be tough. I just have to hit 'reply' as soon as I get that SMS!

Gah.

Thank you Renne ♥

[alice-and-lain.livejournal.com]

Aw, I totally expected to find myself cut and I'm not. Pleasant surprise!

I'm terribly sorry about your cousin.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

Oh man, if my life were a poker game, you'd be the pocket aces.

Trufax.

♥

[answeringbell.livejournal.com]

i'm so sorry to hear about your cousin :(

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

:( I'm sorry I haven't been replying to things.

[knw.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry about your cousin, that's really awful *hugs* But it'll be nice to see you back around more.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

♥ Thanks!

[prillalar]

I'm so sorry about your cousin.

It's really difficult to keep up with everything in life sometimes. I think we put too much expectation on ourselves to keep up more significant relationships that we have time and energy for. I still haven't worked out how to deal with that.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

I think sometimes I get my priorities wrong because it's much easier to reply to the insignificant people then give your best friends the replies they deserve.

[klepto-malfoy.livejournal.com]

missed you.
so very sorry about your cousin.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[mirareeves.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry about your cousin, hon.

[wickedcherub.livejournal.com]

Sick little boy relatives suck. :(