batsu maru.

[wickedcherub]

✘ these past two weeks I've been fairly miserable without knowing why. Things just don't feel right or settled in my brain and it translates to me not being able to concentrate and being anxious. I don't actually know why I'm sad so I can't go about fixing it which annoys me to no end.

✔ so as per normal, I set out to cheer myself up with band-aid fixes, consuming copious amounts of cookie dough icecream, chocolate, swiss cheese, sushi, cake and umm.. tacos. And McDonalds. My car now smells like McDonalds and I spent all yesterday airing it out.

✘ but that just made it worse because I've gained 4Kg these past two months alone and I really shouldn't have been eating all that stuff.

✔ so I bought a cute top. :D

✘ but it put a hole in my weekly savings and I have to be saving.

✔ I've also tried to go out a bit, be social, catch up with friends I haven't spoken to in a while, do things that normal people do

✘ but a lot of my coffee/lunch dates fell through due to life, work etc, and if you've been here any length of time, you know what going out with large numbers of people can make me feel.

✔ I watched episodes 141-142 again. Wonderful-wonderful-wonderful days! I tried to start a Prince of Tennis love-in.

✘ People joined in which made me happy, but it was totally overshadowed by how shit and lethargic everyone was feeling, especially after the Honesty Meme.

And I'm here now, with my scorecard ending on a bad thing.

I don't know what to do? I think this feeling will pass, and I'm impatient to have it pass already. Unless I can work out just what is wrong and fix it. There is also a pimple at the end of my nose. :\

I wish I had something interesting to say! But I just feel sad.

Comments

[answeringbell.livejournal.com]

aw dude! I WILL see you tomorrow.

[maxpower.livejournal.com]

I have one of those "I am kind of a pimple. I will hide just inside your nose. You cannot move your face or sniff without feeling my wrath!!!!" things. Yay!

[sarahlouise.livejournal.com]

ugh, I know that feeling very well, you pretty much described it perfectly. it's extremely frustruating because as you said, I tend to want to know what I need to do to make it better and I don't think there is a way, as such. in fact, I find that once I'm in that state of mind it's really hard to get out of because even the things that might help don't seem all that appealing.

hmm. neither of these things are perfect fixes, but they can help a bit. exercise definately can get me in a more positive frame of mind, but it's kind of catch-22 because if you're feeling sad and lethargic making yourself exercise is v. hard. st john's wort tablets can also lessen that sad for no reason/anxious feeling a bit. They're just herbal, but they really do seem to work...they do conflict with the pill, though, so if you're on that I'd get some proper advice before you took them. I also find that a lot of the time with me that depression type feeling is largely complete overtiredness, so just relaxing and getting some sleep can also help.

anyway. I hope you feel better! I do sympathise, because it's a feeling I know well and it's really, really horrible. :-(

[pixxers.livejournal.com]

Blast that awful meme. :(

And everyone seems to be feeling all schlumpy as of late. I hope it passes soon.

Have some chocolate. ♥

[sakurashadow59.livejournal.com]

*throws love in abundance* ♥ ♥

The icky feelings are in the pimple, you see. Destroy it and you destroy the ick. *nods sagely*

[waka-laka.livejournal.com]

142 is the greatest episode ever. Shishido-san ;_;

[makealimb.livejournal.com]

*biiig hugs* :/

[bookshop.livejournal.com]

I really hope the fandom lethargy will pass. I think we just have to all make a concerted effort to ignore the people who do their best to make fandom a shittier place, and do our best to emphasize tolerance and kindness and openness to everyone instead of elitism and bitchiness. That feels like all it's been lately. I am really, really hoping it's just a phase and not a sort of shift in fandom attitudes brought on by what feels like this 'mockery is hip' trend that's set in.

[waxrose.livejournal.com]

Why do I always miss the love-ins? :/ Seriously. I am like a hippie permanantly lost on the way to Woodstock.

♥, anyhow. I hope you feel better soon.

[prillalar]

Maybe it's just one of those normal down times. And fandom will rebound, eventually. *hugs*

[freesnowcone.livejournal.com]

It will pass, I promise. I wish I had more helpful things to say, because you're always so sweet when other people are feeling down, but I'm bad at saying the right things. I almost always say the exact WRONG thing. My first instinct was to shout "PENIS!" because that's how my friend Jay always cheers me up. But yeah... probably the wrong thing.